Yesterday somebody asked me to pick a card from a deck of cards. The card I chose read, “Abandon specifics and convert to ambiguities.” I won’t talk about the strange somersaults and leaps of faith my heart is going through. I don’t want to cheapen the reality of it all. I feel the circumstances of the sea change occurring in my life deserve a highly technical weaving of...
2013 To Do List
keep: working for social justice, meditating, doing yoga, going for walks and getting sun daily (or as close to daily as possible) improve: guitar, spanish, garden, knitting, crochet, embroidery make: music, mixed media and political art, a badly needed community forum for my neighborhood, tons of juices and smoothies find out: if i have any food allergies for once and for all, how to meet my...
Well, it’s that time yet again. I wrote this resolutions-type post about one year ago, describing how I wasn’t seeking any grandiose change (like the move I had just made to San Diego.) I just wanted to get better at hobbies, pretty much. Much more wound up happening. I’ve touched upon some of this in the few and far between digital scribbles I’ve scrawled on this blog. For...
Hobbit Hole Emergence
Life has unfolded in strange, unexpected ways over the last few months. Even just the past few days have held a special magic that is casting a glow over the frames of my future life picture story. Just last week, I was feeling lost, helpless, vulnerable, disconnected, and… lonely? It is hard, very, very, very, hard for such an extreme hermit such as myself to feel loneliness, but I’ve...
In pop culture, girls who crush hopelessly on guys they can’t have are painted...– Lamenting the Friendzone, or: The Nice Guy Approach to Perpetuating Sexist Bullshit (via waschbar) This puts me in mind of that total winner of a guy who got dumped by his girlfriend and then proceeded to stand on the subway with a sign about it getting random strangers’ support to “win” her...
Tomorrow marks my year anniversary of arriving in San Diego. God, this year has developed in surprising ways: 1. I have a car and commute on the highway. Me! Driving! I mean, I hate car culture just as much as the next environmentally-conscious consumer, so I never thought I’d never see the day. At some point, I realized I’d have to compromise my ideals and do what was best for me. ...
aaron’s dad and girlfriend are in town this weekend, and they’re both exercise and health food nuts like us, so it’s going to be fun showing them around. we’ve been lucky to have so many people come visit since we moved here a mere 8 months ago. it feels like we’ve been here forever! when i fall asleep in my car (i take naps during my lunch breaks because this seems...
Maddow on McDonnell thesis and possible VP...
scary shit since then, looks like mcdonnell has taken a “safe” stance by withdrawing his support from the transvaginal ultrasound bill. oh, virginny. i sure hope you beat this. and i sure hope that mcdonnell doesn’t ever get a chance to take his wack and hateful vision to a federal level.
2012 To Do
1. make a zine or find a good place to publish writing. also, grow up and learn grammar, for chrissake 2. get better at guitar 3. make embroidery comics. DO IT THIS YEAR. 4. make a thing or two for etsy 5. remedy garden problems, learn more about regional horticulture, and rebuild garden accordingly 6. read open veins of latin america in spanish and english 7. find a continuous way to...
fruitpunchmouth: Watching Melancholia made me feel really comfortable about my fixation on the end of days. SPOILERS BELOW Reading reviews, i feel like this film has been misunderstood by many critics. It’s not sci-fi, so it shouldn’t be analyzed as such. Melancholia starts off as a film about a woman… Ooo- so glad you mentioned something about this movie! I saw it in the theatre when...
whoops, accidentally deleted disqus. it’s back up.
as of late
wondering if I really have what it takes to do some things that will require so much of me, doubting my potential big time, and then, confusingly, getting back the highest score of an intelligence exam against 150 other people, just like my brother did when he took the exam years ago. what IS potential anyway? trying to figure out what in the hell i am doing wrong with my winter garden. i was...
i've been kind of thinking about...
getting married. on doomsday.
Don’t look for big things, just do small things with great love….The...– Mother Teresa
when you come home after a long day, plop yourself down on the couch, close your eyes, hear your stomach growl, and then suddenly bolt up from the realization that you left yourself approximately three nubbins of last night’s dinner and are, in fact, a very intelligent human being
the california unemployment rate can kiss my brown behind
I hate being a woman sometimes
lockedinsidemyhead: My hormones are KILLING ME—I’ll laugh merrily like a fucking clown and suddenly I snap like a twig at the stupidest shit… I’m insane word revisited
greetings from a cottage in the hills by the sea. what a relief it is to have a home base. being a homeless college student during her finals while apartment searching was stressful to say the least. after every coffee shop or pho house or library, aaron and i would have to say, “well, what next?” and we’d argue, “well, i have to submit an assignment so we have to go...
1. i haven’t eaten a banana in over a year 2. low-carb for a year, then eat a grapefruit. it tastes like the sweetest thing ever. 3. a multi-vitamin is yea big, and it has lots and lots of vitamins. a B vitamin pill is about half the size of the multi, but it only has B. what’s making up the rest of it? 4. today is my first day of school. i’ll never be sure whether school is a...
i’m sitting in the lobby of the diabetes clinic. i’m in the middle of the glucose tolerance test. i came in this morning after having fasted for 12 hours (had to have aaron drive as i’m very woozy without breakfast), had five, yes FIVE vials of blood taken, and then drank a bottle of the most disgustingly sweet juice i have ever had in my life. got another vial taken at one hour,...
waking up at the same time you went to bed the night (or morning) before
eating a perfectly ripe and absolutely delicious avocado, straight up out of the skin, with a spoon. yeah! life’s fucking good.
i can apply for dual citizenship??! just tack that onto the long list of weird things my parents neglected to tell me until my mid 20’s.
aaron’s alma mater (Kansas) battles VCU today. it’s kind of synonymous with our personal lives, both of us being transplants in this city who are getting ready to move on once again to the next step.
i’m sick AGAIN. and i never get sick! i think i’ve been more susceptible because i’ve been working too hard lately. i think i might need to quit one of my jobs and take it a little bit easier with extracurriculars not only for my physical health, but also so i don’t lose my mind. but yeah, basically, i caught a cold from working at whole foods for three hours. it’s...